Chasing the White Dragon

Cave Canem? Nah Cave Killa

2009-12-04T22:20:00.000-08:00

I want to be a Cave Canem poet
I will stop at nothing to achieve this
Going to a poetry reading in Baltimore on Sunday
Will take plenty photos

Who Are You?

2009-09-24T21:10:00.000-07:00

How would you describe yourself?
Would you be analytical i.e. Black? White? Female?
Are you abstract i.e. free spirit? existential?
Hereditary i.e. Bajan Norwegian Parisian Hindu Muslim

I just find it interesting the way people describe themselves. Some people are short sighted and only see in themselves what other have labeled them (friends, family, teachers) and I feel that is such an unfulfilling way of life. Its devoid of self. These people hold themselves back from their god given potential. Then there are those who label themselves by titles; labels that they wear proudly and push around very haughtily. In a sense they are just as devoid as the latter mentioned but in this case once there are no more trophies, groupies or red ribbon cutting well, what are you then? Some people describe themselves by their occupation. And as I write this I pray they work jobs that suit them and bring them joy. There are few and far between that know the ugliness of their spirit and will tell you straight up "I'm crazy" "I'm a wolf". No comment on these...
I don't know why I'm writing this perhaps because I feel as though society has collapsed into itself spiritually and as a result we live in a constant state of nostalgic living i.e. bring back old fads, nothing original being created). Older generations as fucked up as their times were knew who they were; they had a sense of purpose.
Okay...here is the moral to this weird blog. You dont know who you are. You have to find out. Deep excavation and great adventures. Let parents teach you essential. Teachers teach your stepping stones. And everything else in the way of people, places and experiences make you who you are....no assistance from outside agitators....

I'm a sun burnt fallen angel trying to find my way home..... I guess that was the poetic way

Conscious Dick...thanx Common

2009-08-25T22:21:00.000-07:00

Whilst on twitter today I tweeted I wanted to remake a song called "My Dick" by Mickey Avalon in my case it would have been "His Dick" but that is neither here nor there. A particular reader of my tweets direct message me (3 of them actually) tells me after this message she is unfollowing me because I sound so "well learned and poised" and rah rah rah and apparently me speaking on sex was too graphic for her sensitive lil eyes too see....
Thats cool because u shouldn't follow people u don't believe in and I don't need u anyway...The Soloist Wave Theory...I digress
But people lets take this into consideration;

Are you honestly going to tell me that u believe everyone of these nerd, poet, preachers, activist, teachers and leaders dont got freak in them?
Are they too good to bust a nut?
Are u considered stupid if you have had an orgy (that bit doesnt relate to me)?
Well I got plenty of freak in me...proud of it. Thats part of me. I read plenty books I got Fred Hampton and Malcolm X speeches on my ipod but Roxy Reynolds and Karrine Steffans are like...my idols
What is the matter with being confident about your sex life? BTW-Don't misconstrue confidence with braggery.
But apparently I must be a crass lewd and poorly educated person if I talk about sex freely
If u feel that way kick rocks

"But they say you be on the conscious tip"
"Get your head right and get up on this conscious dick
I embody everything from the Godly to the Party
It's he way I was raised on the southside safari so..."

-Common, Make Her Say

Cuz at the end of the day all I want to do is live free and f*** hard nah mean?

Meaningless blog

2009-08-21T11:15:00.001-07:00

So you say its not bout the late night sex but still I hear
restless sofa bed springs running criss cross between my earlobes
under rockabye suns we lay like sultan and concubine
wrapped into each others arms like winter scarfs
breathe into each others face giving our eyelids cpr

School Girl

2009-08-20T10:29:00.000-07:00

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Im going back to school to attempt to get my MA in Creative Writing and Black Studies...I feel like I accomplish more when I'm in school...so yeah

Cures for Agoraphobia

2009-07-23T23:05:00.000-07:00

1) Get lost in the LES (Lower. East Side) of Manahattan

2) Buy journals that look like old school math textbooks from Barnes and Nobles in Union Sqaure

3) Have a Vietnam vet buy you Jack Daniels @ The Mars Bar

4) Give an oblivious shopper a table dance in the record store on 8th between 1st and A

5) Write poetry in a dive bar and leave it on a bar stool

6) Wander around wid Rasta DJ and talk about mutual friends

7) 2nd ave French Fries wid peanut satay sauce (ketchup is over)

8) Chicken and peanut sauce over jasmine rice on Baxter street

9) Visit ninjas and burn down trees in the studio

10) Give a bum a life lesson

11) Buy a vinyl wid NOTORIOUS B.I.G. on the cover

It was a beautiful day...even though it rained...and Im glad Im not afraid to go outside anymore...it was fucking up my wave...sheesh

where am I

2009-06-28T03:36:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I get the feeling that when I look into the mirror I'm not staring at myself but sumthing else...its like my being is not really here. Its like I'm dreaming like right now...am I really writing this. R u here?

Kick Rocks Both Ya'll

2009-06-16T11:34:00.000-07:00

"It is better to travel alone than with a bad companion"
-Afrikan proverb

Okay, sum bum bitch that doesn't need to be named because she is such a liar and lush asked if she could stay in my brib. I said yes. But then then she started to berrate my former manager. Bear in mind this woman has never invited me to an open mic, slam or let me feature at one of her shows. We know each other in passing.
So if your an aquintance thats talking about one of my niggas I cant fuck wid you. It is that simple. So when she arrives in New York I'm ducking her calls thinking she would get the hint. She didnt.

I tell my bf why Im not letting her in my house. She runs back and tells the bum bitch why then I spent the Saturday before my show arguing over Twitter wid both these bum bitches. And one of them is probably reading this right now.
Kick rocks ho

Cuz all of this drama could have been avoided if you had minded your business...yeah u dumb bitch and this time I'm not taking you back.

I don't want to be around negative people
I dont want to be around ppl who put they business in the street
I dont want to be around ppl who repeat shit I say to get sum kind of leverage over me, especially when I dont tell your business....
I especially dont want to be around users, haters, and wash up over hill bitches so ya'll can take care and get well soon

And Let's Not Forget the Elder

2009-06-12T13:19:00.000-07:00

Backround information bout my grandma aka MUM
1) My grandmother always been a mover ans shaker (best bartender in Harlem)
2) My grandmother got bread enough to move her dimpled ass out of the hood but she won't
3) My grandmother goes to rehab because she has gout and she keeps falling down around the house and she is obese so she taking sum hard hit
4) My grandmother has never missed one month's rent at her residence

So why are these dirty bird niggas trying to kick my grandmother out of her house? Because apparently you have to be living in your residence 6 months out the year for you to continue to live there....
What kind of asshole threatens a 75 year old woman wid that? Who is your fucking mother....
Prestige Management dont know though that we have like the messiah of Jewish lawyers and he dont lose shit....so lets rumble bitch ass elderly bullying douchebags we ready

Who Are Your Parents?

2009-06-05T20:27:00.000-07:00

I was invited to be a dancer at a bachelor party...sumthing to that effect. And upon entry I knew I would b dealing wid dirty bird niggas.
First off there were kids running in and around the party. And one 13 year old in particular kept patting my ass. I locked him in his room wid sum string and a hair (yeah I got skills).
Second there was 3 girls to 25 niggas. So I would expect even under bum niggas expectation each would spend 15 guranteeing us at least 100 a piece. Oh no not these muthatfuckas. The 2 other girls I came with did a lesbian show and they made it rain...40 dollars...for them to split between them. I dont split my money and I dont lick twat. So I damn sure wasnt gonna shake dance for sum nigga pennies.
Lastly and most shamefully...shorty who had been invited with me took it upon herself to suck sum trick dick in the middle of the floor in front of these dirty bird bum niggas. Yeah on her knees, sucking dick on that dirty roach infested floor in front of all those hoodrat niggas. She just stared at me. I stared back at her and as she complained about nobody wanting to tip her after that I asked her in my head,"Who is your mother?" "Why do you have 3 children?" "Why am I here?"...

BTW - the MAC and Digibox is on its way and I got tracks...ya'll know they gonna be fire stop bugging me ..cuz I dont want me being a stripper anymore either

Where there is smoke...

2009-04-22T03:45:00.000-07:00

It started out as an average eve in the hood. I was outside in front of the building looking for sum bud that isnt generic and weak and Im talking to my peoples Xavier and Anthony. Xavier I known since kindergarten literally. And Anthony just a god body sweetheart type nigga. Anyways Im gettn ready to roll up but I wanted to talk to Anthony in private so I asked X if I could borrow him. He said yes. So me and Ant in the brib gettn ready to smoke the best Sour ever..4real and I hear the smoke alarm go off all crazy. Now Im not a big fan of my neighbors and I knew that it wasnt mine since it is broke so we stayed in the brib until it got so annoying we went to Insoector Gadget the hallway. Low and behold the plastic exit sign is on fire, not no big thing. But big enuf for niggas not to touch.
Then the cops come.
We aint snitchin.
Fire department come.
We aint snitchin.
32nd precint detective.
Knock. Knock. Knock.
On the door.
We told the officer that X was with us. So he might have seen who done it.
15 minutes later.
After we spark up.
Knock. Knock. Knock.
On the door.
Detective (who was cool cuz I know he was knocked over by the dour).
"There are plastic signs all over ur friends floor that are burnt. We have to take him in...he could hurt somebody..."
Word.
Then they took Xavier away.
And we laughed at his ass cuz that was sum dumb shit to do...no sympathy

i am Gia Warhol

2009-04-13T08:32:00.000-07:00

Just off the strength of Im a style icon, I paint and those are just my side hustles. But pretty much all my friends are painters, poets, musicians, hippies, socialites, genius and holy folk (dont forget druggies and prostituteS) yeah man thus the alias Gia Warhol.

Sweetwater over Sam Ash

2009-04-12T23:36:00.000-07:00

Yeah a really did cancel my orders from Sam Ash because Sweetwater sells the same shit for 20 less and has odds and ends that Sam Ash dont have. Im trying to do something new and different in music. I really feel like there isnt enuf time in the day time is flying...

Kid Quitter oops...I mean Kid Cudi

2009-03-16T12:35:00.000-07:00

http://www.xxlmag.com/online/?p=40440

Umm yeah...kinda split on this Kid Cudi retirement buisiness... I liked Day n Nite, shit is simple and true. The production is tight. Cant say dude is the wackest thing Ive heard compared to Soulja Boy and Fat Boy CO Rick Ross to name a couple. And one must remember how heads thought that Kanye was trizzy for the longest now he is a worldwide superstar. Now on the other hand I never listened to his mixtape but if you gonna let next people tell you how u livin or how you should be living you a bitch nigga...Homey got far. And to get that far you gonna hear people tell you your wack, lame and all the other who shot john but if u in the midst of stardom not realizing ur worth thats a hell of a deficit. I mean dude was on the cover of the XXL right? For all that he could have gave it up last summer...and let his spot go to someone a little more deserving but thats just me...smh at these lames

Production Team of the Last Hip Hop Album

2009-03-05T01:09:00.000-08:00

Team in no particular order

1) Track 1 - J Dilla - RIP to the one who made the real head nod shit

2) Track 2 - Bangladesh - Some hood anthem music

3) Track 3 - Tek - techno ghetto Alice from Wonderland type ish

4) Track 4 - Charles Hamilton - The master of the sample

5) Track 5 - Black Milk - if the Matrix was an all Black cast in the the projects this is what it would sound like

6) Track 6 - MF DOOM - Evil as I am I really do believe in having a villain score

7) Track 7 - RZA - Ummm yeah hello do I really need to explain this?

8) Track 8 - Heatmakerz - just to turn it up on niggas

9) Track 9 - Black the Beast - its the drums son

10) Track 10 - Kanye West - Revenge of the trendy nerd

11) Track 11 - The Neptunes - just because Im a loyalist

12) Track 12 - Dr Dre - got that remedy ya dig?

Sitting at a Bar Stool

2009-02-26T12:14:00.000-08:00

At a bikini bar at 2 in the afternoon...I cant wait to be famous stillettos and charlie horses hardly go together...smh

How I Got in Tune with My Star Player

2009-02-24T09:00:00.000-08:00

And truth be told my swag is Star Player. But upon seein "It's Pimpin Pimpin" Like lightbulbs went off in my head and I seen my name in mad bright lights.No lie its no secret to my friends and loved ones that I carry myself with a certain granduer and tell people more than often that I'm almost famous.
I honestly believe it though.And I let sum lame niggas try to bench my star player because they was never in the game let alone the court.
So last night mid coitus wid a NBA-esque block star I just happened to mentally evaluate my star player.
I then knew without a shadow of a doubt what encompasses a star player. The quintessential attributes I should say.
A star player is the shit to himself first foremost and always. A swagtastic vibrant cocky humble individual. Always fly eyes occasionally low. Stuntin with a new draft pick keeps a franchise player on the low. YES. Swag on star player. They cant play where you go. Mere bitch niggas Tryin to bask in your glow.

U know I was feeling sumthing like that lol thanx Katt.

Block Star Records

2009-02-23T02:09:00.000-08:00

Yeah Ima start blogging my process of making a small studio in the spare bedroom of my brib. Reasons being I just need my own shit. Everybody who let me rock for free is blowing up or already on it so they dont be in town like they used to. And I feel I would be saving money with my own studio as opposed to paying for beats and studio time with others. So yeah stay tuned for the next hoodcast. Passport situation saorting itself out

Chuch

sigh of relief

2009-02-07T23:11:00.000-08:00

I really couldn't do the starving artist thing. I'm just saying its good when you dont have to choose between groceries or shoes. lol. Ima be aight

Mr. Hamilton

2009-02-06T14:51:00.000-08:00

Remember when we used to wander up Lenox ave and I used to tell niggas listen for Charles Hamilton? I just wanted to let you know all them niggas that was telling me you was wack and thought you was gay last year is on your dick this year. Hard. Your the reason why I rap. You may already know this. I just felt it bared repeating lol

Congratulations Mr. Hamilton you did everything you said you would

When Princes Go Home

2009-02-02T17:36:00.000-08:00

My homeboy died last night. I don't know what else to say. Maybe later

Lisa Lampanelli should kill herself

2009-02-01T01:43:00.000-08:00

Okay as I'm typing this I'm watching Lisa Lampanelli's HBO special and she is making one too many references about the black race particularly men including;

*I love that Oback Barama as the president he's black enuf too excite me but white enuf to show up on time and get the job done

*Why does she [Sarah Palin] have so many children...the whore,is she black?"

*"Is this your girfriend or your owner?"

"I can be in the black version 'Chicken Grease' "

"Everyone knows niggers smell better than farts"

Now naturally I'm very understanding of free speech but god damn. Just because something is funny doesn't mean it's not racist. Even when Paul Mooney or Chris Rock goes in on White folks he is tasteful. This bitch is raunchy, dumb, a bird basically. I'm not even going to say anything too brazy....I'm tight tho
And you are asking yourself right now why I'm even looking at this aren't you? Fess up. The answer is that I'm looking at these professional looking Black folk in the audience feigning laughter and looking uneasy instead of having balls and walking out. Cuz a bitch like me would have thrown a Coach shoe at the heifer and ventured on the stage to get my footwear back. But thats just me and I'm just saying.

Industry of Cool

2009-01-28T01:51:00.000-08:00

Random thought: Are all these performers that are popping up everywhere genuinely unique or are they just feigning individuality? Note: I love sum of the new artists out, sum I know in person. But they are genuinely into their craft then there are these
little tenny boppper "bright myspace having" internet type stars that really draw attraction from the art. Its not,"Yo shorty had bars" its "Look at shorty jacket". Don't get me wrong I know that an essential rule of the "urban ent. world" is too always be fresh and clean (and I adhere to these rules with a tool kit) but there was a subtle nuance to it in generations past...its like an all day fashion show. And not for nothing but I would feel mildly insulted if an artist tried to win me over with bright jackets and sneakers. Now if the artists is genuinely talented he or she can wear whatever the fuck they want as long as they have pure intent. Perfect Example: Andre 3000 (the first rapper I wanted to marry, is that a Pisces thing? Ima ask Erykah one day).
So the questions remains, where is the pure music and talent in the Industry of Cool?

Outtie

2009-01-17T11:39:00.000-08:00

I'm getting ready to be absent off of blogger,gs poetry, myspace and all of my internet watering holes. I have too much to tend to. Constellation of a Block Star. And the Boombox said,. I got shows in other countries that I'm so not ready for...physically and spiritual wise. Oh and there is the little issue of me finessing my MC game before the summer. And getting out of debt before my first show overseas in March. I need sum time to get my nuts and bolts aligned, you smell me? Like a couple of weeks or months. Don't worry though I'll be back...wid sum new shit...promise....

**DON'T USE CREDIT CARDS**

Training Camp

2009-01-15T11:54:00.000-08:00

Those guys I did the song with...went with them to Training Camp @ Club Pyramid. I was part of the entourage,looking as sexy as I wanted to be. And I can take constructive criticism. But I felt like they was trying to come at my head and use me for my sexual prowess. My best friend's ex the CEO (Red Tape), and my ex is one of the rappers (Sin Blood). He the one in the white and black. And my phone never takes pictures at the right time.

So yeah. Sin and Tape actually give me encouragement. They tell me to work hard and have patience,stop being so eager. And they told me how I need to conduct myself in public. I liked that. They told me I sucked without telling me I sucked.

Them out of the way, just wanted to say I can't respect a nigga that tells me I got to suck and fuck the whole crew to get down....the 2 unnamed niggas. I don't do that. As sexually charged as I act and dress I'm not a ho, I'm not trading favors. I don't want to be Lil Kim or Foxy Brown. If my poetry is nasty. My bars have no choice but to get nasty. Cuz I feel like poetry is rap without the hook and the beat.

I know I ain't nice as Hov...yet. But I feel like I'm nice in my development. I just need to work on my delivery and my flow. I be aight. I don't know I guess they (un named assholes) thought by telling me I was trash I would be so upset and hungry to be on the team I would drop to the floor and suck their just forming dicks.

I ain't a booth rat bird. And just because they think that I should be I have to be the nicest.I have to be nicer. I have to be nicer. I must be the best. Number 1 because if you a female you got to work 500% harder....I won't lose...definitely not to them

You know what I hate?

He said,"Why don't you stick with poetry?"

"Because I'm a rapper."

"You lie to yourself too much"

"If you think so"

Apparently....

2009-01-07T12:08:00.000-08:00

You can't leave the country if your in debt...that kinda puts a damper on my plans

Talking to Mr. Tibby While I'm Drunk

2009-01-07T11:40:00.000-08:00

The Habibis (Deli Owners) gave me a cat

I kicked him out because he pissed on my $200 Betsey Johnson Angora sweater

When I came back the next day

This nigga was waiting for me in the hallway

Next to the security guard

CAUGHT!

Took him back upstairs with me

It was cold outside

Who wants to adopt a cat?

I dead ass might not be able to keep him

:(

New News

2009-01-02T01:42:00.000-08:00

Music brings people together in so many ways. Case in point I haven't talk to my ex boyfriend/ex fiance/ex fuck buddy (yes all one person) in like a month. All because my "best friend" wanted to get involved in my personal life. But anyway I happened to be featured on a track he was supposed to be on. I recorded it yesterday. He has been telling me "good work" since this morning (New Year's Day). Oh did I mention I was playin the part of a sexaholic? I was moaning throwing in sum choice phrases like...you gotta wait to hear the song. I actually did rap but because of time constrâints niggas cut 8 of my 16 bars. Why did that feel so good with him teaching me how to deliver? Why did he have be one mixing it down? Why it felt like old times? Why I love this little nigga so much? It felt good to come together about music besides the old why you fucking this wack bitch, why niggas in our business, beating each other senseless in the lobby and various different schemes we cook up together. All that smiling, directing, praising that shit was tight. I know its gonna be good this year

Then I went to pops house

My Definition of a Faggot

2008-12-31T02:33:00.000-08:00

Any man who hits a female. I got into a fight with a derelic AIDS patient (no seriously) who wants to infect every chick in the 10 block radius of 145 and 7th. No blood was shed. Got some good hits in with a Ketchup bottle. Got lit up by Murda. Sexy joint out of 3 building. And the OGs getting in that ass tommorow. With industrial rubber gloves of course. Happy Fucking New Year's by the way

About Xmas

2008-12-26T00:01:00.001-08:00

I miss my grandmother....that's it

2k9 @ a Glance

2008-12-17T02:53:00.000-08:00

January - Paris and Montpilar
Febuary - Chicago and (U.K.?)
March - Berlin
April - Amsterdam
May - California
June - Honduras

Plus invites to go to Tokyo, Sydney and Brazil.
I don't do any travelling
So if yo know any hot spots I should know about
please shot a holla

R.I.P. to the Starving Artist

2008-12-14T02:40:00.000-08:00

To be honest I like stripping. That's my shit. I like being on stage and entertaining and making people happy, so to speak. I quit and stayed jobless for like 3 months because I let certain parties guilt me into not wanting to do it anymore. And I'm not going to lie. I was starving in the streets. I went without a lot of necessities and forget about shit that I really wanted. And the types of things I like to do require mozarella. And I don't do nine to fives...was never really my style. Don't call me lazy...I prefer non conformist. I'm not a 9 to 5 person more like 10 to 2. Can't really take orders gotta do my own thing. If I wasn't stripping I would probably work at Barnes and Nobles. The literature would be worth being ranked an underling.

In any event this bit of the blog is dedicated to the haters

7 People Who Have a Worst Job than Being a Stripper

1) A doctor that administers vaccinations w/ known side effects to babies
2) A policeman who arrests 16 year olds for loitering and send them to bookings
3) The judge who sends a non violent drug dealer to serve his time with rapists and
murderers, in turn teaching that man how to be violent and/or a killer
4) A teacher that feeds our babies propaganda bullshit in the public school system
5) CPS that doesn't do their job or wants to fuck with a family just cause....
I'm not even going to go there
6) The people who own BET for telling us we aint nothing but swingin chains, ass and
gangsta rap
7) The "pass the bucket" minister who uses your donations to keep his plethora of
rainbow colored gators maintained...

Santa Bet Not Fuck It Up List

2008-12-04T05:28:00.000-08:00

Pink 9 inch laptop by Acer
Blackberry Storm
Ipod Touch
Gucci Duffle Bag or 2
Canon Rebel XS
Of course my pretty Black Pussy

Last Week was intresting

2008-12-01T20:09:00.000-08:00

Went to see my grandmother she is still in Rehab for her leg

Realized my mother can't cook and if my grandmother dies I'm losing mor weight than I have in the past 9 months....please come home nana

Met Tek for the first. He was the guy who did the beat to the song I was featured on wid $b

He says I need to work on my stage presence lol he heard about my fuck up ;)

Forgot my father's birthday but he still loves me

My little cousin told his kpmrades that I kicked him out for sum nigga now I'm the bad cousin

I honestly dont give a fuck

I hate having a dusthead for a step father because he does things like this

this picture is actually from my room ;(

After Me, Tersit and Low sat on it there is now a new head to the Gia circle

Welcome Juicy Jameson

I was in Queens and I thought about that nigga

I used to dance in the club he got shot in front of, know girls that seen the whole thing go down

I miss him so much

o-do n-ye-rah-a fee kwan

that means "Love does not get lost on its way home"

"Love Lights Its Own Path, it never gets lost on its way home."

Come bak

A Love Note I Guess

2008-12-01T02:32:00.000-08:00

I had this song in my Ipod I don't know how it got on there...

Then my friend Atum had sent me sum lyrics he said reminded him of me

It happened to be the same song

When you get a chance download and listen real trill shit

(Lyrics to Little Wing by Jimi Hendrix)

Well shes walking through the clouds
With a circus mind thats running round
Butterflies and zebras
And moonbeams and fairy tales
Thats all she ever thinks about
Riding with the wind.

When Im sad, she comes to me
With a thousand smiles, she gives to me free
Its alright she says its alright
Take anything you want from me, anything
Anything.

Fly on little wing,
Yeah yeah, yeah, little wing

***I WILL. AS FAR AS MY ARMS WILL CARRY ME!!!**

My Love Life...lol yeah right

2008-11-29T00:35:00.000-08:00

Okay so I have 2 dudes that I deal with mainly

Flow 1: 36, Queens, Known him for a year, sugar daddy, in the street type of nigga, quiet, 1 child, got me pregnant, no type of emotion (he reminds me of Dexter), never had an argument

Flow 2: 19, Harlem, officially met in August, but he had been seeing me in the hood for years, spoiled brat turned bad, swagtastic, man whore, vane, Jamaican, stroke game is crazy, we b Ike and Tina

Flow 1's problem is that he don't know if he want to fuck with me on the long term or short term. Flow 2 feels a certain type of way because I'm a little older than him, and he cant get away with the shit that he does to young chicks as opposed to me. Flow 1 dissapears weeks on end. Flow 2 pops up with miscellaneous bitches to spite me when I piss him off (we both live in the same building)
You know what? It don't even matter. I'm cutting both of them off. Flow 2 I been avoiding because I know how he move. So I can duck him forever unless he come to my door...Flow 1 kinda adheres himself to me. Calls me from different numbers trying to catch me up. Think I might just change my number...

Here goes the Why's

Why I always get these rough around the edges, chase their own death type niggas...why?...why cant I just get a rough neck that want to come home at night....Actually Sin was that...but anyway he fucked himself

Apparently he told my so called best friend the real reason why he "dealt" with me and it was a purely sexual thing....but thats a lie. He felt a certain type of way because she pressed him and he told her some dumb shit....

Why did this chick make an ultimatum regarding my relationship without telling me?
Why ask the nigga, "Is you trying to fuck with Kiya or not because....."?
Why is that her business?

I dead ass felt like she took away my choice.
Then I blacked on him later that day...for something unrelated but the way I came across I think he knew why.

Why tell that girl that?

My head hurts and I'm horny....

From Malcolm X Blvd to Home of Malcolm X

2008-11-27T00:37:00.000-08:00

Poetry really does take you new and interesting places. Well new places. So for instance me being from Harlem I don't know nothing about Omaha Nebraska. Oh I'm lying it's the place Malcolm X was born and it was one of the main settings in the movie Belly. Lol. Besides that all I know of Nebraska is fields and shit. This poetry head hit me and asked if I wanted to do a poetry festival. I was excited. I like to keep my mind open. I like the country anyway. It's quiet. Peaceful. All things I need right now. Besides I like wandering in other peoples hoods. Makes me feel invincible. Too bad the festival is Summer 2k9. Fuck it something to look forward to

Peaches and Cream from Georgia to Paris

2008-11-25T01:22:00.000-08:00

I'm going to the land of Riley (great grandmother's maiden name); Georgia. I'm staying with a friend in Atlanta. Really hope I get to go to Savannah. You already know I'm hitting all the poetry venues. 7 days and nights of shopping, eating, poetry and debauchery. A vacation coming at such a perfect time. New York iz driving me crazy!!! Its too much of everything I used to do before its boring. I love Harlem til the day I die though. The bodegas, 99 cent stores, EG, Dun's House, The Polo Grounds but I'm demanding a change of scenery.

I'm going to Paris in January but I need some travel aids before I go...
1) New laptop
2) USB cord for my camara
3) Massively obscene sneakers and jackets
4) "How to Speak French for Dummies"
5) Ipod
6) BlackBerry

I just want to update on old gadgets

I don't know what to expect in Paris...

My show wid $trictly Bu$ine$$ aka the night I broke my MC cherry

2008-11-22T22:18:00.000-08:00

This is cliche but.....

2008-11-21T21:05:00.000-08:00

I'm so special
I'm so special
I'm so special
so special
so special
so special

had to get the yard out...

And in less than 12 hours of my first show

2008-11-20T05:38:00.000-08:00

Listened to light of the life of crime like 60 billion times (totally enamored with the live band production)

Ate 3 bowls of Capt. Crunch and lit my ass on fire

Watching But I'm a Cheerleader

Want attention from.....I guess we getting along better (After the Ike and Tina rendition in the Lobby, the foyer and the damn incinerator room. Hey its not domestic abuse if he has a slick Harlem nigga mouth) sorry

Finished my outfit I look original to say the least

You like?

Got to smoke an L

Finish memorizing the verse lol (aint nothing change)

Less than 24 hours before my 1st show as an MC

2008-11-19T21:14:00.001-08:00

Um....just finished the verse

It was fire in my opinion

finished the tutu

added bellz and whistles

many pictures tommorow

life is sweet

**chuch**

Or maybe...

2008-11-18T23:39:00.001-08:00

Arahkah

The Beginnings of the the Female MC

2008-11-16T11:45:00.000-08:00

Okay I decided I needed to stop the bullshit and just get on my MC. Because I honestly I dont have the soft lyrical sing song voice that is sought in the poetry indiustry. I'm hood. I'm not quite lady like but I can appear to be so. I'm far from dumb I just dont like being a know it all...because you cant so you always frustrating yourselves and others. I am very concious and very militant. But I'm not a militant black person. I'm just militant and I feel like...like...the game is soft.
There are no female MCs. So the game is soft, bias and in most cases hateful toward women. (And before my male readers even start; I know the differeance between ladies and bitches...and I don't shun songs that sing about genuine bitches but there are virtually no songs calling women queens, goddess, mother nothing. I dead ass can't remember a mainstream MC doing a song about his mother in the past 3 years...wow) Where is the lyricism about women as something other than...
Why when Hip Hop Freshman came out this year there were no females on the line up? Not one. Yeah there is Remy but...she on lock. Lauryn done lost her mine...there is something lacking...

Here is what I have notice in my 2 weeks of being a female MC

1) When dudes find out that your rapping they interview you more than a fucking broadcaster

2) Or they don't believe you

3) Or they think you rhyming about dicks and shit

4) When I practice freestyling in the street ppl look at me like I got bugs in my ear

5) My mother thinks that this is phase (I'm sure many people do actually)

but those are just the cons

1) Since I been on my shit I'm bumping into mad men behind the curtain industry type heads (i.e.) a jamaican basment party on the hill I just happen to be walking by

2) Many who are already doing there thing want to take me under there wing

3) For every person who tell me I'm wack 4.3 tell me I'm hot (yeah I'm keeping count)

4) I'm cautious who I let know I'm spittin

5) Realized how much I love music and how fine my ear is picking out notes and other type things

6) The sky is the limit

7) I don't fight the music, the music fight for me

8) I was born to do this and if you tell me I'm lying I think you stupid

9) I don't know know what High Kun means but that's my booth name

10) I'm a backpack goon rapper ya dig?

**High Kun**

I thought this was funny but then again most of our conversations were...

2008-11-16T11:42:00.000-08:00

"I rap now"
"No you don't"
"Yeah I do"
"So spit sumthing"
"I'm still in the developmental stages. I ain't have the practice you had."
"I ain't practice, I just speak"
"See? Nothing changed"

Randomly Walking

2008-11-16T11:28:00.000-08:00

I bumped into Sciryl and Charles Hamilton last night. IT was kinda awkward because I been engaged in booth genocide, then got caught in the rain and was having a bad hair day. But there was love there. It's good to see my ppls doing their thing. Sciryl just came out with his album S.C.O.O.P. (Slight Change of Plans) and Charles was on the the cover of XXL this month.
It was inspiring. Nah thats corny. It gave me a jolt to see my niggas accomplish and pull off something better than great because it came from them organically no ready made shit. Sciryl been on his grind since 14 @ Urban Word has been on DEf Poetry Jam and anyone who is an early Charles listener remembers him roaming the streets of Harlem letting everyone hear his latest hot shit (lol memories of summer 07)
This newness in the game is so good. Owww!

The Flier for my show on the 20th

2008-11-08T03:26:00.000-08:00

SEE YA'LL THERE

Meet $trictly Bui$ine$$

2008-11-01T04:00:00.000-07:00

His last LP Poisonous Politiks was the truth
It was gritty medley of revolutionary, gutter and trip hop bars
the production was excelsior the album flowed like, well, an album
I was impressed and I told him
And he was impressed with my voice
So I'm hopping on his set @ Sullivan Hall on the 20th of November
I dont know if Ima be a poet or MC
we gonna figure it out

http://www.myspace.com/thekennedys021

How Many Sequals to "Saw" will they make?

2008-11-01T03:40:00.000-07:00

Cuz me and my Komrades cant watch them and honestly
I think the people that make these movies are sick
There are mathematical equations in all this
People are making a science out of torture and pain
and thats not sovereign

Slick or Treat

2008-10-31T14:04:00.000-07:00

I asked my cousin Jason what he was for Halloween

he told me, " A Squaded up Harlem Goon"

Im so proud (tear)

Wash and Wash Up

2008-10-30T17:56:00.000-07:00

Def: (verb) to savagely hurt or maim

i.e. "**** *I*** **** ****!!!"

Oh U thought I was lying?

2008-10-20T02:02:00.000-07:00

But I'm your daughter...

2008-10-13T12:01:00.000-07:00

It seems like its always a struggle when I ask my mother for something. And I rarely ask she for anything. I haven't had an ipod since like Febuary. But I'm working on a song and I want to prep myself while I'm on the move as oppsed to doing it in the 6 hours I am home. So I call my mom and she tells me,"We have to discuss that and then I'll give you the Ipod." right? But my whole thing is 1) she doesnt listen to it 2) She knows I'm a junky and music the pipe 3) She let her dusthead boyfriend give it to his homeboy and he had it for a good 3 months (a stranger)
I'm on my Way of the Peaceful Warrior shit. My mother doesn't have to trust me, like or even love me. And I'm OD cool with that. But when she does things like this...it hurts...you know?
She gives me all the guidelines and rhetoric that she would give a average person on the street. Why?

Getting cold...

2008-10-13T11:20:00.000-07:00

....need sumthing tall, dark and long to lay next to while i sleep lol

I just found this funny....

2008-10-10T21:41:00.000-07:00

I turned on my computer and this popped up (http://www.dignifiedcaskets.com/?Click=37) out of all the porn sites, couple matching sites and the like why would a site for coffins pop up on my computer...is the government trying to send me a message?

Caught! (Confessions of a CIA agent)

2008-10-07T22:06:00.000-07:00

FEMA coffins and Why everyone should start practicing their sharpshoot

2008-10-05T21:36:00.000-07:00

I ran across a couple of things ya'll might want to see

i didnt know MTV was so concious

My Room

2008-09-29T14:45:00.000-07:00

I need Graf heads, Mural artists, painters and visual artists. I want to turn my room into a piece of art. Let me me know if you intrested (646) 320 2223

True Talk

2008-09-24T22:14:00.000-07:00

I really need a vacation

In the words of my lil cousin Silky....

2008-09-14T15:47:00.001-07:00

Niggas aint shit

Boyfriend or Main Flow?

2008-09-10T13:41:00.000-07:00

So I got a new joint. No names we aint gonna do that. But I'm trying to distinguish if he is my boyfriend or main flow. I really try hard not to talk about the state of any of my unions. I wish not to jinx them. But here are a list of things I hate and like about the young chap.

Dislikes
1) How he acts 10 years younger than what he already is and he is a year younger than me!
2) Him drinking my Minute Maid Cherry Limeade out the container
3) Getting into my bed with his dirty sneaker socks
4) Taking 2 hours, literally, to bring back whatever I asked to get him from the store
5) His comrades who are trying to fuck me
6) His fascination with being Don MAgic Juan (just the swag NOT the company)
7) Forgetfulness
8) His ever slick harlem boy mouth
9) His lazy
10) His extracurricular activities

Likes
1) He watched Zeitgeist from beginning to end then took it upstairs and showed it to the homeys
2) Has a deep seething hate for the NYPD
3) Going to the army (so he can teach me how to take guns apart)
4) He can freestyle better than most mcs in the game and has no intentions of being a rapper
5) He is bold and rebellious and says whatever he feels
6) He will man up for being wrong
7) He is teaching me how to be a japaholic
8) He looks like a young dark skin Tupac
9) Even though he doesnt claim me as his girl he dont let birds be fly in his face
10) He tries to teach me new things but stops in the middle lol he has ADD
11) He reminds me of Claude Brown in Man Child in the Promised Land
12) He doesnt drink...at all

Things We Have in Common

1) Ride the 5
2) Love gangster flicks
3) Love sweet potato pies from Crown Fried Chicken
4) All day potheads
5) Common sense
6) Like to make money
7) Always on the move
8) Sloppy organized
9) nicotine obsession
10) Slapboxaholics (we practice on each other)
11) Stay in bed til noon

Planning the Book Release

2008-09-10T13:26:00.000-07:00

Okay I have been ironing out the details. I'm having the book release party for Constellation of a Black Star in November date tba I'm having it at Revival.

Cakeman Raven is making my Cake

And you already know the book is going to be the truth...

Why Pan's Labyrinth is my favorite movie of all time

2008-09-07T15:34:00.000-07:00

And most people know its because the main character Ofelia reminds me of my friend Channel; Living in her fantasy world, rebelling against authority, confronting monsters to get by and the ending when she passed abruptely. I cry sometime I see the end, but it's a good cry, a cathartic one. In my nostalgic and emotional way I liken Ofelia's descension to her 7 Circular Palace to Channel ascending to wherever. That's it...aint know more. Had to honor my passed ones on a Sunday.

Black Kid's Fairytale

2008-09-07T00:21:00.000-07:00

It's going to be the best poem I've ever written. I was inspired by The Complete Grimm's Fairytales. Most people think there are only like 10 or so Fairytales; Jack and the Beanstalk, Little Red Riding Hood (It's Little Red Cap in the book), Snow White, Rapunzel and Thumbalina. In actuality there are about 210. My poem is basically referances to all of them. I dont know if I want to tie in several stories or focus on one main chracter. But I'm laying the groundwork.

I usually dont do this

2008-09-06T16:24:00.000-07:00

but he a cutey...kinda reminds me of Tupac

R U Serious?

2008-09-02T23:58:00.000-07:00

I love Tok son. She a fly little chick but I was tring to wonder if she was serious or joking

Last Random Night of Summer 2k8 (S and G)

2008-09-02T11:59:00.001-07:00

If you aint know I'm an E.G. denizen....the only condos in Harlem with crackheads and a pool lol

I guess gentrification makes me look sexy

Silky had like 25 groupies

we love the kids

repping WORDSTOCK...I'm the first lady

ran into my daddy he did a double shift

we had a photoshoot with a crackhead

got sum dutches from Nose (deli man)

vandalized a vending machine

walked on the wild side

got wet

swung on sum poles

waited for assholes

And forgot to blog about the Afrikan Day Parade

2008-09-02T11:46:00.000-07:00

the sun was definatlely in attendance

me and Big Gia aka Gia Hamilton

randomness

I Dead Forgot to Blog about my show with Black Ice....sorry

2008-08-30T05:38:00.001-07:00

nuff said

My Favoritiest Cartoon Ever...4 real....no bullshit...havent seen it in 10 years

2008-08-27T21:18:00.000-07:00

Not Funny @ All

2008-08-27T21:14:00.001-07:00

Funnilicious

2008-08-27T20:43:00.001-07:00

My Other Cousin

2008-08-18T12:55:00.000-07:00

You know Silky my sister in law, comrade, secretary and life coach lol. But nah for real we found out today that her great grandmother Jaunita was my grandfather's 1st cousin. Now technically that would make us cousins by blood. Now aint that sum hotness.
I find this funny because we was going everywhere telling people we was sisters or cousins and it just happens to be true....sometimes I swear I'm my own genie.

I'm feeling great today...

Mz. Shakur Do Hunt Dem Hunters

2008-08-18T10:43:00.000-07:00

(Wolf Howls)
I'm not a hunter but i am told,
that, uh, in places like in the arctic,
where indiginous people sometimes might, might, hunt a wolf,
they'll take a double edged blade,
and they'll put blood on the blade,
and they'll melt the ice and stick the handle in the ice,
so that only the blade is protruding,
and that a wolf will smell the blood and wants to eat,
and it will come and lick the blade trying to eat,
and what happens is when the wolf licks the blade,
of course, he cuts his tongue, and he bleeds,
and he thinks he's really having a good thing,
and he drinks and he licks and he licks,
and of course he is drinking his own blood and he kills himself,
thats what the Imperialists did with us with crack cocaine,
you have these young brothers out there who think they are getting something
they gonna make a living with,
they is getting something they can buy a car,
like the white people have cars, why can't i have a car?
they getting something they can get a piece of gold,
white people have gold, why can't i have gold?
they getting something to get a house,
white people have a house, why can't i have a house?
and they actually think that theres something thats bringing resources to them,
but they're killing themselves just like the wolf was licking the blade,
and they're slowly dying without knowing it.
thats whats happening to the community, you with me on that?
thats exactly, precisely what happens to the community,
and instead of blaming the hunter who put the damn handle and blade in the ice
for the wolf,
that what happens is the wolf gets the blame, gets the blame for trying to live,
thats what happens in our community,
you don't blame the person, the victim,
you blame the oppressor, Imperialism, white power is the enemy,
was the enemy when it first came to Africa,
and snatched up the first African brothers here against our will,
is the enemy today,
and thats the thing that we have to understand.

(Clapping)

My Cuzo

2008-08-17T14:56:00.000-07:00

just has a way with the ladies. But true or no doesnt Low look scared as hell?

Low and G

2008-08-13T12:42:00.000-07:00

That sleepover was the shit

Long Time Coming

2008-08-11T14:01:00.000-07:00

I used to watch this dude on tv and now I'm gonna do a show with him....dreams come true

Mr. Mac

2008-08-09T07:50:00.000-07:00

Thank you for making us laugh and giving a us a good reason to sneak and hear your dirty Kingly mouth

R.I.P.

Dumb You Down

2008-08-08T14:33:00.000-07:00

I would like to give you sum musical backround before you see this fuckery...

now watch how they are literally dumbing us down...

http://www.truthzonetv.com/view_video.php?video_id=507

Have you seen the movie Waking Life? Buy it!!

2008-08-08T14:23:00.001-07:00

http://www.truthzonetv.com/view_video.php?video_id=27

International Playgirl Reformed? Nah...not happening

2008-08-08T14:02:00.000-07:00

I cant stop humming this for sum reason...maybe becuase I'm ready for the tour...

Guess who coming to my show on the 20th?

Who Said You Cant Love Your Sister-In-Law...

2008-08-07T17:14:00.000-07:00

cuz I love mine we drink together, smoke together, get lost on the lower east side together. She is pretty, smart and she is not a bird. We have way intrestign and deep conversation wid each other. Way refreshing when birds and pidgeons are your only option (lol) thats my bitch and she doubles as my secretary

we was being "fat asses" we ate pizza, fruit cup, and then ice cream

oh yeah she is good at shutting up deli huggers and hood posers....

SILKY!!

Mr. Young

2008-08-07T16:38:00.000-07:00

Randomly going through my myspace i hit up one of my poetry comrades B Yung. He had a double victory getting selected to be on the Youth Poetry Nationals and the Adult Poetry Nationals (yea he does have skillz). Shorty is the truth. Anyway I asked him to make me a list of venues in Wisconsin and he went above and beyond and said he would make a list for me where ever he go. Thats sweet. But he is also cute thats why he gets his own blog entry...im playing

but check my homey B Yung out at http://www.myspace.com/apoetnamedyung

The 20th

2008-08-07T14:58:00.000-07:00

My manager Reggie put me on the spot last night and asked me what I was doing to get my show out there to the public (ref. to my show on the 20th with Black Ice) So I showed him my myspace page www.myspace.com/sunladyofmelrah and it was listed ut he said that I didnt have the day (e.x. mon) in front of the date so I wrote a blog with all the info on it and posted it (go to my site and look at it, much prettier)

Wednesday August 20, 248 @ the Key Club...
Current mood: excited
Category: Parties and Nightlife

is going to be the place to be; POETS, SINGERS and MCS welcomed to the Verse for Verse Open Mic hosted by RAS BARAKA (author of Black Girls Love Hard) and JUBA DOWDELL; GIA SHAKUR (WORDSTOCK artist, author of Constellation of a Block Star) opening for BLACK ICE (Def Poet, Broadway Performer and Recording Artist) in addition to performances by Rainmaker and Definition and several members from the WORDSTOCK poetry collective. Celebrate with Gia as she releases her debut compilation of poetry CONSTELLATION OF A BLOCK STAR. Let your Verse be heard.

When - Wednesday August 20th 2008
Where - The Key Club 58 Park Place (Downtown Newark) , New Jersey
Cost - 10 b4 10/ 12 after

Oh yea but I didnt tell you the funiest part...nigga got on the phone with my mother and told her that I was slacking on my job and missed rehersal....you know I got screamed at right?

Mobsters

2008-08-05T11:36:00.000-07:00

iz the shit

Dave on A

2008-07-31T09:54:00.001-07:00

So I'm walking from Spit 16 (Source Magazine poetry/hip hop thing) I'm walking up avenue A observing all the freakilisciousness stop and get a blackberry and banana shake and this white boy (man, I should say) on this weird ass looking bike. Vintage wheels. Anyway. He talking sum old,"I want you to model for sum paintings" And usually I'm very weary of white men equipped with cameras and the like (Me and Aja had a bad experience last summer) that I meet on the humble. But he didnt seen odd, just his bike. I gave him my info looked him up and he is pretty cool. He was that crazy ass that jumped off the 6 story building on a sheet of steel, wrapped in tinsel and Xmasery shit. He is a amazing. I love dare devils and escaped artists.

David is the wrestler to the left by the way. Check out his website.

www.impactaddict.com

**chuch**

Early Morning

2008-07-30T16:07:00.000-07:00

Yeah...guess who I got a phone call from this morning?

2008-07-26T01:49:00.000-07:00

The universe played a wicked trick on me last night. I'm not a downtown club person but listen. In a downtown club, on the humble, on a thursday night when I'm usually working...stands a motherfucker that looks just like Carlito. I mean this dude had his round ass head, with the wings on his back, short and stocky. I thought he was this dude so much I started looking at his teeth..crowded at the bottom, chipped and gapped at the top just like Carlito. But upon further inspection he had a scar on his face and he looked way younger like my age. But he he could have been dude twin. So I was just standing their starin at this asshole who had the nerve to look like my ex. I was staring at him so hard he actually turned right into my glance.

Then this dude had the audacity to follow me around and kept asking me to dance. I finally said,"Pa, I have been avoiding you all night because you look like sumone I used to deal with. Your face is literally hurting me." "Wow. Thats rough." he smiled and walked away...he kept looking at me the whole time. When he left he came up to me, gave me a hug and said see you around.

I could have cried. More so for the reason because me and carlito never officially broke up. I just stopped answering my phone for like 3 weeks. Then I blocked his number. After I put away the grudge I decided to call him for father's day (he has a daughter) and his phone was off. So I dont know how to feel. Definatlely not heart broken I dont do those. Its just a small voidness in my idle hours that manifest when Im reminded him...

I cant even drink Mo no more this is a sad state of affairs...

Cathedral and St. Mark's Comrades

2008-07-26T01:38:00.000-07:00

I dont know why but I've been running into mad bitches that I used to go to school with. Funny thing is we werent really cool (I didnt do girlfriends in school, too chatty and stupid) but now its like we chill. I dont know if its them or me. Alot of my old classmates tell me I'm completly different...hello...10 years later? But anyways its cool to make friends with the chicks I was mortal enemies with in grade school...its like copacetic. One chick goes out with my cousin (yeah more on that later) and the the other 2 is party heads who have asked me to accompany in there escapades. i could neve refuse cool party heads and ill bashments

Constellation of a Block Star in a Dufflebag Near You

2008-07-23T13:41:00.001-07:00

Yeah its been a long hard process. Much blood sweat and tears. Much leafing through my notebooks I been keeping for the last 3 years. But finally after my 10 years in the poetry game I'm self publishing my first compilation of poems and prose. Owww. I'm muy happy with myself I never thought that last year around this same time I would be publishing a book of any scale.
I had much time to reflect on these things. After coming out unscathed in the streets of Harlem and Brooklyn, 3 asshole boyfriends and occasionally run ins with the NYPD (figurative and literatively) and the death of my childhood friend Channel I was still able to produce work of substance. Even though I had vowed to myself at one point that I would never write again because I was finding out how ugly the world is and I didnt think writing about it would do much (how stupid was I?).
She never left me I just thought she had. Who can appreciate beauty without sunlight?

Don't Sleep on Nas

2008-07-12T21:16:00.000-07:00

First off I dont have a problem with the word nigger. Never did. Even before I found out that
1. In Brazil calling a woman a nigga is compliment
2. In Kemmet an ancient language "nighar" translates to "to God"
3. In Senegal "nigger" has always meant friend
4. The Buddha studied from a group of dark skinned asians called "niggers"
5. "Nigger" "Nigga" "Nighar" translates into several languages througout Afrika and Asia as "all knowing"

So it gets me tight when people make ruckuses about words that they do not even study...duh

On Sleeping

2008-07-10T01:53:00.000-07:00

Wise men say those who sleep on their backs are closer to their 7th circuit of conciousness...and to think of all my boyfriends who slept on their stomachs...And even the one who loved me the most who didnt...

Yo....dead ass....im so there

2008-07-05T23:47:00.000-07:00

My lil sister, sidekick and ride or die just got peppered sprayed by the the boys

Good Way to Start off the Day

2008-07-04T19:27:00.000-07:00

found sum good loving in Hollywood last night lol

Trying to be like Ghandi but these pussies wanna push me...

2008-07-02T19:58:00.000-07:00

i dont want to go into details but sum lame ass suge knight looking nigga owed me sum money. He giving me a whole bunch of who shot john. Then started laughing at me. Like my dude if u think im living foolish cool but dont laugh at me when u taking money out me and mines pocket? What part of the game is that and I'm female...but basically I "blacked" as Charles Hamilton calls it but instead of doing it in the booth i did it with the booth. thats right ladies and gentlemen I beat that bitch nigga with a microphone stand and broke the gate to the mic and the stand. My dude Cash the nigga thats been recording me accapella, im sorry (it was his shit i broke on this nigga head). But niggas really need to watch their company. In fact niggas just need to treat niggas like they would want to be treated themselves. Then we wont have split lips and knots on our big abnormally shaped yogi bear looking headz...

I love a man dedicated to my vagina

2008-06-28T12:29:00.000-07:00

I watched a lecture from Dr. Donald Torry. He is mad cool. Sexy and older (yummy) He is the only doctor I've seen thus far that looks like Rick James. Attire and hair, everything. He basically broke down how you suppose to having a period is good. Real deep shit I cant go into. But I highly recommend the tree of conciousness series...its a collection of lectures, documentaries, autobiographies, movies and news reels for the people that reside outside the matrix. Availible on the dvd stands on 125th.

Vegetarianism is reaffirmed. owwwwww!

Hmm...

2008-06-27T15:32:00.000-07:00

I'm having very strange dreams

cool random weekend

2008-06-26T14:08:00.000-07:00

Little boys from the Dipset block (151 b/w amsterdam and broadway) are so funny. I was walking up the road and this little boy ran off the stoop, stopped right in front of me, rub his hands down my thighs and smacked them. Now obviously if this was a grown man I would have been pissed and swinging, but it was so innocent. He probably seen his mother and father doing that. Lol. His mother snatched him away and was laughing hard too but the shit was so random my lil sister wanted to take a pic. We did. And their mother who was like 9 months pregnant was selling nutcrackers so we got the strawberry daquari joints and it turned into a completly funny night. I love Harlem.

farewell

2008-06-26T03:56:00.000-07:00

i wonder how it would be to move away. Abandon all that i know. And start again from scratch? I think I was phoenix in my past life

Damn myspace starting panic

2008-06-24T03:13:00.000-07:00

I had remarked on sumthing I was doing this week and sum of my ppls thought I was throwing in the towel with the poetry buissness. Not so much that as getting my barings. I just realize sumthing integral I need to work every other week and concentrate on my art everyday. To keep me in the style I'm accustomed. Its not so much materialism than being a dandy Deans tend to do that. Some of my comrades who live off their poetry tell me to come into the fold...i walk straight tho. Dancing is an art too.